Hi John Jeff
I THINK WE ARE NEAR contemporaries in terms of stroke. Like you I am approaching 6 years. Taking stock:
I was in hospital for 10 weeks after seeing my GP With a complaint about funny feelings in my left hand. She did the FAST procedure of tests and immediately called the ambulance for suspected stroke. So far so good but I was left for some hours after triage in A&e but was well cared for once I was taken into ward, with blood thinner drip, CT scans, the full works I didn’t really know what was going on, and I don’t remember now when I became aware of the extent of the damage. I d suffered an ischemic stroke. Which left me weak on the left side. There was a lot of physiotherapy and occupational therapy in hospital and they managed to get me on my feet after a few weeks intensive work,
I was wobbly and could not realy bend my left leg at all. They tried unsuccessfully to get my left arm and hand to work. After leaving hospital the OT Service arranged various adaptations in my home including a hospital bed for me on the ground floor, it was weeks more before I could manage stairs, but eventually I was able to make it up to my own bedroom much to my relief.
With the help of the community Neuro rehab team I was able in spite of significant disability to get back to work, this was more a case of having to than wanting to. I had a senior role in a local charity, but my employer was not very charitable. My return was difficult, and I could not function with the same energy and focus as prior to the stroke. It went from bad to worse and eventually they found a way to get me out, which worked OK for me, but left some significant emotional scarring, it was a horrible experience. Looking back I am amazed that I coped at all, and that I even got back to work.
My walking now is still laboured but I try to practise as much as I can. I had foot drop for a long time and used an FES machine to help compensate. I still have it on loan but rarely use it now as I am still determined to learn to walk better. I can’t give any inspirational reports here. It has been very hard and it still is. Unlike you I never recovered any function in my left hand and arm. I struggled for most of the last 5 years with elasticity, meaning any attempt to activate my hand was thwarted by the continual stiffness. Via the community OT Service I was referred to a clinic which gave me BOTOX treatment which was effective. This stopped last year with the pandemic. The good news though is that mostly now, without the BOTOX the stiffness has significantly reduced, by itself.
Other bits of good news include a big improvement in the foot drop, it isn’t completely recovered but enough that I rather attempt walking withou the FES aid than with.
The latter part of the last few years have been focused on trying to strike a balance between accepting being disabled and continuing to work for recovery.
I am more at ease with using my wheelchair now and do not think it in any way " giving up" it helps me to live more fully.
A big achievement a couple of years back was to get approved to return to driving. That was hard work and short lived. I had what I thought was a minor scrape with a roadside fence when taking a left turn too tightly. The insurance company insisted the car was a write off much to my dismay. But I got decent compensation. I won’t now drive again. I don’t have the energy to source another car, and I wasn’t enjoying it much really to be honest.
I was very lucky to have avoided any serious cognitive damage, so I am able to read as much as I like, this has been a source of great joy and comfort to me as I get used to my enforced retirement. After the job fell apart I was able to get a benefit that did not require me to look for work was a very active 57 when the stroke stopped me in my tracks .
Im still a few years short of statutory retirement age and I can’t imagine any employer wanting to take me on at this late stage and I am not fit to work, so all in all I am accepting this now with some measure of relief.
So, it is all a bit messy really - there has been no smooth trajectory of recovery, and I haven’t recovered but I have to some extent come to terms with what has happened to me. I have had superb support from professionals and have been healed largely through the love of my family without whom I don’t know how I would have done anything.
So that’s rather a long testimony, thanks for the opportunity, if you’ve got this far, thanks for reading. It isn’t all good news but I hope some of it is relatable.
Keep on with the cooking, I haven’t got there yet, but I will! looking forward to year 7.
Best wishes
TONY