I’m Gemma (Gem) 41 Female, Mum to 3 and full time NHS office worker.
Last night 23rd January 2023 I was discharged from hospital after a 3 night stay.
On Friday 20th January 2023 as I was about to wrap up work for the weekend I had a sudden onset of dizziness which quickly became something a lot more severe than I ever expected.
I will say I was fortunate in that the office where I work had 3 highly qualified nurses there and help was arranged and sought for me immediately.
An emergency CT scan showed normal intracranial appearance, despite not being able to touch my own nose when the asked, not being able to stand up, lopping off the the side in my chair and my right eye flickering and my lips feeling like I was just coming out of having a local anaesthetic at the dentist.
I was taken to the assessment room for further tests and monitoring and I struggled to swallow when eating or drinking, what can only be described as it felt like a golf ball stuck behind my nose.
After further tests of bloods, MRI, CTA it was found that I had suffered a Right Cerebellar Stroke caused by a Right Vertebral Artery Dissection.
My recovery has been fast and amazing, other than the lethargy and odd agitation over little things like too much talking and a strange shooting pain that goes from the back of my head and radiates to my right ear and cheekbone.
So I was discharged and finally spent a good night sleeping on my couch at home.
Why my couch and not the bed? I feel safe in the living room, in my bedroom I feel out of sight forgotten and this is the biggest issue I have post stroke.
The absolute fear that it’s going to happen again.
That’s why and how I found myself here because I know that there are others like me on here, who know exactly what I mean.
I know this is very very very early days for me and so I’m hoping someone with a similar experience and feelings can tell me that it does get better.
I don’t want anxiety meds on top of my blood thinners and statin, I just want reassurance that over time the fear does fade a little bit.
Every funny feeling I get makes me think I’m about to have a stroke, prior to this I always had a little twinge or a mini dizzy moment but I did not immediately think impending doom!
Will I ever be able to ignore these little things and move on?
Looking forward to reading through your posts, getting to know you, and hoping that one day I can answer a question for someone else feeling just like me today. Something slightly good has to come from this experience and I’d like it to be just that.