Today I learnt via a trip to the dentist that when he says “I will have to numb your right side” that is now apparently my new trigger to sob like a child pleading him not to make me numb on my right side, then to go through deep gum cleaning treatment totally anaesthestic free, which felt weirdly satisfying to be able to feel.
After pulling myself together I tried to make a quick exit without being seen.
My dentist however being above my GP practice and I bump straight into A Dr who is also a colleague of mine from the hospital. He was like “oh my gosh, I’m so glad I’ve seen you” which apparently is my 2nd trigger to start blubbering like a baby but this time with blood dribbling out of my mouth because of the stupid blood thinning medication.
I’m now holding up this GP from getting to his surgery and a waiting room full of patients wondering why I’m so friendly with him.
So then I start crying because I’m crying in public… I made a silly excuse which was “I’ve always been scared of the dentist” which is a total lie, and this makes me cry because 1. I’ve lied to a friend and 2. Ive just made myself look even more foolish.
Straight home, comfies on, slept the afternoon and woke up now laughing at how stupid I must have looked to everyone today.
GemA- Are you a stroke survivor? If so, stroke affects a part of the brain dealing with emotions. It’s very normal after a stroke to have intense emotional reactions, even to the smallest of things-- and not only upsetting things either. I used to laugh too hard and long at things I found funny. It was embarrassing. That has toned down now, after 4 1/2 years. Thank goodness! Jeanne
Yes I had a right Cerebellar Stroke on the 20th Jan this year.
I was actually at the dentist for some gum cleaning treatment as I convinced myself that the pain in my right jaw was dental and not related to the stroke.
I have a tendancy to try and down play my after effects by blaming something else like lack of sleep or a cold.
But I’m starting to get to grips with it now and learn to understand how I was affected.
I walked out of the Hospital upright and am able to talk and on the outside would appear relatively ‘normal’ this is the reason I convince myself the way I do.
However there was actually no mistaking this full on triple meltdown today which resulted in me having to go to sleep for hours afterwards.
@GemA , all perfectly understandable considering you are not even two months post stroke (I wasn’t even out of hospital at this point). It does take a while for emotions to settle down but don’t worry too much about what others think. Unless they’ve had a major brain injury noone can imagine what some of the after effects are like.
We all understand it and have probably had similarly embarrassing moments. It’s good you were able to laugh about it afterwards because some of these things are quite funny in hindsight .
I had a TIA just before New Year 2022, and my emotion ‘chip’ is still work in progress.
During my week in hospital, staff had mentioned emotions - but I thought nothing of it and nothing seemed out of place. That was, until I watched Apollo 13 (again) on my phone. Tom Hanks said, “We just lost the moon” and that was it - I was in pieces! Other films with sad or unfortunate moments would trigger the same.
Oddly, when I laugh at a joke - or something just funny - my laugh itself sounds and feels different. It’s almost not of my control? As I say, odd.
Sad moments, now, are as they were before and fully in-control. But ‘laughter’ is hopefully still fixing itself. I used to pre-warn folk (about both) just in case. It took the edge off and helped.
I had a stroke 2 weeks ago. I’m 53 and fit and healthy so it’s been a massive shock to the system. My emotions are all over the place! They’ve found a hole in my heart which has enabled clots to travel to my brain so I’m terrified that it’s going to happen again before I get treatment to block the hole. On the outside, I look fine and I tell everyone that I’m fine, it’ll take more than a little hole to knock me off my perch! Truth be told, I’m an emotional mess!
@joannecreeden1 I think your emotions quite normal it’s only been a couple of weeks, on the plus side they’ve found a cause that can be, hopefully, rectified. Also, I imagine you’ve been given anti platelet meds to reduce your risk.
Try to stay relaxed and don’t dwell on the what if’s, ask for a referral for counselling, it can help.
@Mahoney thank you for your kind words of support. You’re absolutely right that it’s very early days and I guess it takes time to process what’s happened. I’m on all the meds and just have to play the waiting game until they can repair the hole in my heart. I’m trying to cut myself some slack and be a bit kinder to myself! xx