Hi ? love , thanks for your message, its taken me ages to be in the frame to reply, or look on the site, I know you understand, like all of us on here, we are all saying similar things, which feels supportive in itself don't you think! How are you doing? Day by day? The most regular thing i find myself saying is " this isn't me".. Do you think we just adapt? Like most people have to I expect, it really does feel life changing!
Im getting a bit better conference wise, although must admit its quite a struggle to motivate myself sometimes, I don't sleep very well, but then I've always been more of a night person, I'm rubbish in the mornings, lol ?,
I miss Jeff, my husband so much, he passed away last March 2018, we were married for 30 years, in the last ten he had had two heart attacks and a stroke bless him, his stroke affected him mentally more than physically, though he was disabled with ankylosing spondilitis, which meant his spine was crumbling like chalk, so, he had a lot to put up with, but didn't complain, he was a very content man. I cared for him more for last 4 years , so was used to being the "well" one! Lol .. I know he would have been a great support to me, I have 2 sons, 30 and 37, one lives 20 miles away, the other a couple of hundred , in Liverpool, both married. Have you got family around you?
Well, I'm off to bed , bliss! Please stay in touch now and then if you want to, x x my doc has put me on Bisoprolol, apparently it does two things. keeps blood pressure stable and helps anxiety, haven't been on them long, so time will tell! I had to go on a 40 minute bus journey few days ago, was trying not to get worked up about it, where as before it never entered my head! I just put music on my phone with earphones, and concentrated on the scenery passing by, :) but I did it! Yeah!
Let me know how you are doing,
Warm wishes hun,
Caroline x