Hello everyone my names Sarah, I’m 36 years old and it’s been a cruel, tough, incredibly emotional and frustrating 18 months since my stroke.
Im still only engaged (it’s only been 17 years but who’s counting) to my soul mate and mum to our 2 boys aged 13 & 15, it’s my 1st time posting so wanted to introduce myself, it’s a shame we are all meeting here under this awful umbrella but it’s pretty lonely out here and I want in from the rain .
I just needed to vent because I know you will completely understand.
I’ve been suffering really bad over the last 2-3 weeks with depression and my anxiety that I’ve had since my stroke is certainly not helping but do you find sometimes the little things can feel like really big things? I’m probably completely overreacting because of how I’m feeling right now but today for instance something I do every day I messed up today randomly, it was something so silly but I had a meltdown over the bathroom sink and it wasn’t a pretty sight, this is all over toothpaste!! I put it on my toothbrush and looked at it almost waiting for it to do something because my brain just went blank, there was nothing there and then I thought aha and turned the brush on… toothpaste everywhere but my mouth, I know its amusing but at the time it was just another bloody thing to add to the list.
I guess it doesn’t get much easier does it? Stroke survivors of 5 years+ do you still do random things?
I have done so many crazy things and most of it is damn common sense, I’ve just lost that whole bit and it’s tough!